You never realize how much you have grown up in a short amount of time until you realize you're 18 and married, 19 and thinking of ways to run away from the life you created for yourself, almost 20 and ready to disappear from your family and friends. What does this to you? The feelings that never change, the emotions that wont go away, the people that keep you stuck in the place you are at, and the things that never fade. Two best friends, one husband, and plenty of shattered dreams later... and I still cant seem to tell anyone what is going on inside my head because they might just think I'm crazy.